水中有太阳

        我做一分的错事，你责怪，乃常。次数多了可能有点抗不住，我从没因此生气。但做人啊，不能拿客气当福气，步步逼近，愈演愈烈。甚至在你做了这样的事情之后还习惯性的对我进行责怪。我不是你的出气筒。好脸给别人，绿脸给我。

        我花了很多心思，让你过了挺满意的纪念日，爱写博客的你却不提，在异地别人给你过了生日，你滔滔不绝，这也罢了，还因为我没看你博客而生气！天哪。强盗啊？难道要我看你的博客再顺便留个言说那个男人对你可真好啊。那些看你博客的朋友有谁知道你还有个男朋友啊！

        我从没如此气愤过，自己算什么名堂！我不知道究竟这样的气愤算不算正常，但这就是我当时在你生气完回去补看你博客时的感受！It sucks. I don't want to bear it, and I can't either.

    Before last winter, I lived my smooth life with personal belief of “non-relationship” and turbulence of my friends’ breaking-up affairs. Last winter, I fell in a relationship.

    “Love at our age is seed hard to blossom and fruit”. I held such a faith about love, even at the sight of flowerlike smile from a couple, like a freezing winter in a play, where an episode is played in spring, or in ECNU, a paradise of love.

    When seeing a piece of ice melting and merging into a river, you may not sense the looming spring, but if a gale of wind supposed harsh and acute when whipping on your cheek is so gentle and soft, with a smell of burgeons and buds, you may ask for today’s weather because you felt it. Spring is feeling you can actually feel.

    Yes, you are the gentleness. That emerges and spring comes. It warms the frozen attitude towards love in my heart, thaws the ice and snow, shakes my belief, kicks the winter out of me and spreads a blueprint where birds sing, flowers bloom and grass gleam to tell me how love can be and how relationship can undergo.

    You are with me.

    We spent a long time together, maybe not to us, yet. We witnessed the winter gone and the spring coming, the whole course of a graduating student finishing last procedures, many little changes on campus even like the refurbishment of the roads, you starting off tutor period and making friends with that kid, my in-and-out interviews for a decent job and the happiness of playing duet as a duo and traveling as a couple, not two individuals. That’s maybe the happiest time in my whole life, with my girl, my exuberance at any event and regular reecho when it’s over. It’s the life basing love, yes, I mean love.

    I wasn’t captured by previous winter in my mind, but make it capitulate, by your gentleness and the ensuing spring.

    偶尔想用中文写一次博客，呵呵，可能大家有点不习惯，这是真的，虽然今天是愚人节。

    刚过0点的时候，她的msn又亮了，和平时不同的是这次的说话内容，是让人莫名其妙的话，什么下周少见面咯，经常见面不好咯，当时真是不知所措，急到手心冒汗……原来自己是那么的脆弱，难以想象，当她告诉我是愚人节骗人的时候，那时候我的心情其实是高兴，就像噩梦醒来知道自己原来是在做梦一样，是一种莫名的兴奋……

    也许自己是一个做什么事都是会不自觉的投入许多的人，不愿意也不甘心放弃和改变的人，感情尤其如是，虽然我们的感情才开始没多久，但今天却发现自己原来已经陷的那么深，那么害怕失去，更何况是对一个经历过失去的人而言，这样的愚人节玩笑足以使人窒息。

Yesterday I rejected to fall in a relationship, but today I am really in one, hopeful, serious, and expectedly fruitful.

“If you think too much, you can do little.” It is a haunting sentence I heard from Xun when I told him I have been in a relationship. He knows that I always think too much, like feasibility, future, if mentioned love or girls. I uesd to think it’s useless and time-wasting if starting a relationship full of uncertainty concerning its future., and that’s the reason why I refused to fall in love with anyone, and get reluctant to tell whom I might have crush on.

Maybe Xun is right. If you think too much, you will lose the initial excitement and impetus to deal with your love affairs, which might be sweet now and even bright in the future. It is not what a young man do. It’s just escape. So now, I decide to be more active and confident, believe myself ,liberate myself from being afraid of loss and vainness in love, follow my feeling and take her as my girlfriend, and her name is Chen Zhihuan.

    Despite the several weeks before the qualification line will be issued, it's urgent to consider whether to go along the previous way or veer to another which may mean the admittance and even surrender to my lose in the examination.

Maybe nobody pays attention to Winter Olympic Games, neither was i. But something changed in my mind when I saw those beautiful players on ice,  quiet, competing in the way of dancing. Unlike other sports, short program (a kind of design skatting) is so rather a joint art show than brutal competition that we could forget we are watching the match of Olympics.

Chinese prince and princess in Short Program, Zhao Hongbo and Shen Xue ranked 5th after today’s match where a successful triple jumps was wowed. It’s an unbelievable and perfect comeback for Zhao’s tendon he injured last year.

What surprised us most is the Chinese young players, Zhang Dan and Zhang Hao, who are now in the second place only behind the Russians. Zhang-Zhang began their show with an series of intricate moves, reminding us that there are other players besides Shen and Zhao. Comparing to Shen and Zhao, the Zhangs are more confident to do difficult moves. They are spinning , lifting and flying in every second of the program.

Maybe tomorrow will see the first gold medal for Chinese Team. Let’s just wait and see.

    Kobe bryant scores 81 points in a single game today! What a kook! I still remember the game where he got 62 points and Lakers won over Mavericks in the third quarter, which brings Kobe to the bench and us a question, "What would it be like if Lakers did not win the game so soon and was dragged into the fourth quarter and Kobe was continuing his shot show? The answer came up. It is stunning and unbelievable. 81 points! It tops Michael Jordan's personal record of 69 points.

    He's just amazing. 

      I learned these two words from Friends, my favorite TV series which is unbelievably funny and I recommend it to anyone who has got interests with soap comedy.

    When Monica said that she and his boy friend could get a bassinet after their matrimony, an actually obvious hint of having a baby, her boy friend, Richard, about 20 years older than her, mistake it as a basset, a kind of dog according to dictionary.                    

      It is funny, and it has meanings. Monica and Richard end up breaking up in Friends, a sign of the failure of love between two people with wide age gap. When we are sick of undertaking and witnessing the vanishing of love between two of the same age, some, especially girls may go another extreme, a love with wide age distance. If the age gap of 4 or 5 is normal, then 10 or even 20 is reasonably abnormal. It’s wide enough for any misunderstanding and malicious difference to emerge, just like Richard thought Monica would like a hound, but in fact she referred to baby. This is so called gap, not only lying in age, but in many aspects in life.

If handled well, age gap is not a problem and it brings a sophisticated and experienced man, but if not, it may mean conflicts, as not returnable as you in the prime of life while him holding a stick.

    Almost everyone who knows me has a shared idea that i have a poor memory. I admit

but i don't want. Before that, maybe in earlier days, i didn't accept it, for i

always think it's just about whether i care about certain things and want to

memorize them or not. But it's me who is wrong. Once you don't try to do something

and still stick to the ability you have had or the belief that you can handle it,

You are really in the way to failure. Life is for everyone to struggle, not wait and be

blindly optimistic. Even in fields you were good at, if you don't move on, you will

soon be behind, let alone those you don't specialize in. That's why Kobe Bryant is

always the first one starting training, although he is that excellent in NBA. So,

start memorizing those little things, and i will.

连续被点到回答相同的问题，8个理想伴侣的条件，既然有8个那么多，我就狮子大开口了。

性别：女

1，能习惯我有时候的神经质。

2，勤劳。现在的人普遍比较懒，勤劳的人很酷。

3，结婚后要小孩的。因为我妈喜欢小孩。有了小孩子才是个完整的家庭啊。如果是男孩，教他打球，拼了老命都要赢他的，terra又要说了：“当心被他盖”，我肯定回答到：“就凭那小子”。

4，爱干净。宁可有洁癖也不要太邋遢的。

5，不反对甚至支持我的兴趣爱好。和自己爱的人做喜欢做的事简直就是神仙眷侣般的生活。我也经常做这样的白日梦的：一天，她提出陪我通宵看世界杯，结果还没开始就睡着了，我最后还是一个人看，第二天早上还恶人告状说我昨天先睡着……其实尽管这样也很开心。

6，外表上不要太高不要太瘦。很多人老茧都听出来了。

7，会做饭。意思是两个人都会做，不要一个人不在的时候另一个饿死。

8，不要是太严肃的那种，不然老没劲的。

   Everyday i wake up i must face the fact that i am an ordinary person in such a cruel society, just like a powerless ancient man in antient times, foodless and homeless. Those beautiful songs from a cartoon named TOUCH throw me as a reminder of my high school days into a cage where i am thinking about a question over and over--Am i growing old inside?--I really was a little boy when in high school, laughing, jumping and chasing my freinds. But i am not like that any longer maybe because of the heavy sack of my future i am shouldering, or the dim hope of being excellent in career if i do job hunting now.
    What do i have? I feel unprecedentedly empty if thinking about those successful people who have been freed from Natioinal Graduate Entrance Examination and go derectly to the graduate classes, and those people who have got an offer from a famous company or even got a fat contract, and also those people who are sunk in cyber talks and computer games from day to night, free and unworried, because of their almighty parents working as an authority. The soring price of apartment in Shanghai hits me more down the cliff where i would be a powerless man with no strength and tools while facing a hunger or a security threat and contesting against diverse competitive foes for a shelter or my spouse if i were living in an ancient society.
    Am i old inside?